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Salam syawal, I'm back yall. the title, "deleted' I just wanted to tell you guys about this one person i've been crushing on ever since I entered UiTM. He's not from my field and exactly opposite from my field. If we're close then you'll probably know him. We called him abang. since there's a lot of abang in UiTM, I just let it be tergantung like dat. let people guess who is it. so, on the middle of 2nd semester, there's this event held in dj at night. it is call voice of faculty and it was the final stage for them and we got a RM5 entry ticket since we cheer for our friend, Nizam. at the end of the event, I saw abang taking picture with some of the girls i know, apparently friend of my friend. so, i was a bit confused whether to take picture with him or not since we've known each other from ig. yes, we've talked but then shit happen. And he happen to liked my friend. my very close friend. and wow i guess i need to stop my own feeling from growing way too much since i've already see the conclusion rn. my close friend even told me that he kinda flirt with her. and that moment when i realised i need to step back. The picture that we had together that night, I deleted it and forever gone. I didn't even want to look at it back I just don't want to have acquaintance with someone who's not worth waiting. And when i think about it again, i felt like i'm useless, really. hoping that i'll forget them at the end of the day. Happy Monday everyone :)

It's not too late

After looking at some of the video that inspire me, i began to tell myself that what is my distribution in the country when I haven't distribute something for myself. I often ask myself to read a lot but because of the environment and I feel like im not committed to what I'm doing. yes, i like mathematics. i began to start liking accounting. but i wish someday I could voice out my opinion and facts in order to have satisfy myself in that level of higher education. I'm really looking forward to myself being successful and be able to contribute something for the younger generation. First thing first, I need to have encouragement and support. second, commitment towards what I want. Do not give up. Third, confidence. Confidence is the key to everything when you are committed towards the work we are doing, then we will be able to confront the message that we want to deliver to the society. since i'm still 19, I wanted to be able to do what i suppose to do and make something extraordinary when things are complicated and makes my brain as fast as other. I know im slow, but I really wish i can developed it. I'm sure i can if I wanted to. Insya Allah. Do not forget Allah no matter what.

Let's stop running from love

Hi guys It's been awhile since I've write something on my blog. I'm on my semester break right now. waiting for my second semester in early March. Didn't even make anything yet in this holiday just buzzing around at home playing with laptop and watch tons of kdrama. What is holiday without kdrama isn't? LOL About my current status? still single and available. but rn i don't think that I'm capable of having a person to love me, or a boyfriend for short. My level of loneliness is not in categories as desperately needing a boyfriend naah. I'm still okay been alone and single. Cause I find that enjoying myself alone is the best. I never felt been developing myself so obsess. Maybe I need to learn how people could stand been with a lover for the rest of their life. maybe not in the mood of love. I am very delight for having myself.it's call self-love,isn't? So what is all about the headline? "Let's stop running from love"? It's a self battle. a lyrics from troye sivan's song, My My My. This song is my new anthem cause of the vibe. It's winter season right? so in Malaysia we also have winter but not so winter. It rains a lot in here. almost like every day. and I'm starting to think that it was the best to have the winter kind of song. Then it stuck in me. I actually have known troye sivan before, but then this is my favorite song from him. In Malaysia, if it's rain that's mean it's very cold and we kind like it since our country is a sunny country it rarely rains but if it is rain season we have to be careful since the road would be slippery. I guess that's it. I'm going to pen off right away. Have a nice day ahead! :)

Back from Aussie and tons of exam! smh

Hello guys! greetings again after a few months. YES! the headline today. I'm back from Aussie 2 weeks ago. but didn't updated my blog since I've been busy with college and test and quizzes. ZzzZzz y'know. I am actually having a family problem right now, that's why I like to busy myself with some works so that I did not think of that the whole time. cause I'm overtinker. obviously ;) But guess what? it's Saturday today yes and I'm done doing my video when I'm on the trip! can't wait to upload it soon. And I was too bored doing my works so I install filmorago apps where you can edit videos and photos. and I've done it for like an hour because I have to edit it have cut it out and so on. it actually takes like 30 mins to finish the editing but you know I'm a bit slow heh :B I've got a lot to talk about but I have assignment to do, and I have to pen off right now. Goodbyeeeeeee p/s wait for the video to be upload okay guys? ;*

Be proud of your scars.. a beautiful story by Sean Buranahiran

When a bowl is broken in Japan, it is put together with the cracks being filled with gold. Creating a beautiful lining. This is to emphasize the beauty in what was once broken they believe that when something has suffered damage and has a history, it makes it more beautiful and the same goes for human beings. Everything that you've been through doesn't make your life uglier although it may seem that way when we're going through it, it's up to us to choose to paint or struggle with gold and make it beautiful. You are not broken beyond repair, you can pick yourself up and become a better person from it because of the struggle that you've been through you can wear your scars proudly as a badge of honor as if to say 'look at what i've been through. I can get through anything life puts in front of me now.' Nobody has had a perfect life and nobody ever will. It's only up to us if we choose to paint or broken pieces gold and make it beautiful. Don't be ashamed of what's happened to you. Everything that is happened to you has happened to you for a reason. so the more we deny, the more we complain and don't accept what's happened to us then it doesn't become useful. The moment that we accept and find what's useful in the struggle the things that we've been through, that's just like us painting the cracks in our broken pieces gold. turning something that could be ugly into something beautiful and inspiring. When what you have been through is inspiration other people then it was all worth it.so don't get stuck on how things used to be. I once heard the quote that says "every next level of your life will demand a new you." and sometimes it takes to being broken in order to become that new version of yourself.so if you're going through hard times, I hope this story could help you or somebody that you love.

Great news!

Hi guys! It's me Thirah c: Glad that I have something to talk about today. and some good news!! guess what?! I'm so excited about going on a trip to Gold Coast with my cousins this Nov. yeayy! I was actually in dilemma when I heard about going on a trip since I've never been to oversea before. that might be the first time. and also that time I have classes. I'm intimidate since I am a college student and got a lot of things to settle and it's on lecture week. So I was quite bemuse of what should I do at that time. I was very intricate that's why. But my cousins advise me not to worry about anything since she's also a college student and to enjoy things in life.I was very sure that I'm not wrong this time, hopefully. xx

First? Sorry,nope. It's the 61st actually c:

Hi guys! It's me Thirah. Your long time blogger. I've actually been on blog since I was 14 if you're wondering. but I didn't post it public just because I'm afraid people will laugh at me at that time cause it was just like a personal diary for me. But now I'm 18, I want to have the courage to post something that gives benefit not just for me, but of course the readers too. no matter what topics I am going to discuss about. If you're feeling the same situation, don't hesitated to comment down below. You either stay anonymous or yourself it's up to you. I wanted to just express myself and at the same time I wish people could relate to me too. so this will be the introduction for my blog I guess. There's so many things I wanted to share with you guys. beauty tips, fashion, art, music, social, etc. I hope you guys enjoy reading them. adios! xx